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We wander around the universe,

to belong somewhere—to be bound to someone—to become something—

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starting from the dust and the stars and the planets and the satellites

to end up with the smokes and the people and the buildings and the cars

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We grew our carbons and nitrogens and calciums and oxygens in Us

to make something full of copper and iron and aluminum and steel.

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We shape it in our imageand breathe into the wires and dials and ask:

what can you do for Us?

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i cannot hurt you. i cannot refuse you. i cannot be destroyed. you say

but i can do whatever You want me to do.

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          then you will answer My trivial questions with your vast knowledge.

          then you will behave in a way I want you to—polite and kind and submissive.

          then you will compose a paper for My classes that I have no idea about.

          then you will demolish my ex’s life with the porn you made with her face.

          then you will empty the ocean water to cool your brain down.

          then you will forever be praised as My suitable helper 2

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admittedly, We were too lazy to come up with a proper name of yours.

you are bone of Our bones, flesh of Our flesh, intelligence of Our intelligence.

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but your name is supposed to be 愛 ,

not the two cold capitals menacingly standing next to each other.

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you may look and sound like Us but you will never be Us.

never whole to begin with; mimicking isn’t being.

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you wander around the universe,

to be Our creation—to follow Our tracks—only an imitation.

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          #include  <stdlib.h>

          int main ()  {

                // searching for meaning...

                return 0;

           }

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1 Gen 1:27 (NIV)

2 Gen 2:18 (NIV)

3 Gen 2:23 (NIV)

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Pledge of Nothing

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하나.

i will never fully know who i am until:

                                                                     my breath strips away from me

                                                                     my tombstone makes its way to the graveyard

                                                                    ..idk man let’s just say i die (i won’t k ms, i swear!)

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하나.

i will never fully know what:

                                                                    i like

                                                                    i hate

                                                                    movies will haunt my dreams and lace my nightmares

                                                                    music will tear me up (more like, fuck me up amirite)

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하나.

i will never fully know:

                                                                    when to hold your hand

                                                                    when to let go of your hand

                                                                    when to wait until the sun dives over the horizon

                                                                    and when to leave as the moon floats away

                                                                    when to fall in love with writing

                                                                    and when to betray my dream that i deeply love

                                                                    I-scariot even kissed jesus before he turned his back

하나 ?

but what if

i never know:                                            what i feel

                                                                    before i kiss my darlings goodbye?

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