Obsessions

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I'm not crazy.

It's just if I don’t lock the door and press the handle three times someone is going to break in

And that is completely normal

But for some odd reason people laugh when I do that

I thought everyone did that?

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I'm not crazy.

It’s just if I sit in a different seat it feels like ants are in my skin

And that’s just how skin works

But everyone in my family calls me Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory

He’s a little strange, I don’t think I’m that bad

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I'm not crazy.

It’s just I need to repeat my checklists over and over again for at least an hour

And that is what everyone does when they have responsibility such as an assignment or remembering their keys

But when I tell people I'm checking over and over they tell me to get a grip

I have a grip though; I just need to make sure everything is done  

 

I'm not crazy.

It’s just what if I left my stove on? Or my door open? What if my apartment burns down or someone takes my cat?

And everyone overthinks these things

But when no one mentions these things

I wonder why they don’t

 

I’m not crazy?

It’s just I’m scared if I don’t do everything three times I am going to die

And if I think someone will die it’ll happen

But no one else thinks this way

At least that’s what I’ve heard

 

Am I crazy?

It’s just I’m overwhelmed with “what ifs”

And debilitated by rituals and repetitive actions

But everyone is... right? 

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